Here's the truth. We are quickly approaching Ella's first birthday on October 25, and I am becoming more of a hot mess as each day passes. Seriously. I got all teary eyed yesterday when I turned on the music from Ella's swing that she is now too big for. I'm seriously hoping that her first birthday, and official end to her "babyhood," does not send me into a full blown emotional breakdown.

Don't get me wrong, I love watching her grow and learn. I love her spunky personality that matches her fiery red hair. She is so much fun, and is the light of my life. We have all kinds of fun planned for her first birthday party, and I can't wait to celebrate one amazing year. I do, however, miss the days spent holding my sleeping baby, instead of constantly performing damage control.

As any first time parent knows, the first year of a child's life is full of excitement, emotional roller coasters, and sleepless nights, yet, we love every single second. (except crying all night long, we don't love that) I recently came across this Pampers ad from Japan, and it's perfect. Two of the lines in it are like arrows straight to my heart; "A baby's first birthday is also a mom's first birthday," and at the end, "Thank you moms for the most trying year of your life."

Tissues. I need tissues. You will and see.

P.S. You will need to turn on the subtitles. That is, unless you speak Japanese.